Round and Round

My life has been like a catergory five hurricane lately. It's been a huge ing disaster with debris all over. I want my old life back so bad and so dam greatly. Its like someone keeps calling my name in red Rover. I keep having to run back and forth endless times. It's getting really old and I think I may pass out. My hands stsrt to hurt if I just sit and write rhymes. I hope I'm doing what I'm suppose to do on this route. Everything will eventually work out for the best. As long as I keep the faith it'll for sure work out Sometimes you just have sit down, lay back, & relax. You just need to try to slow down not go to the max. Let life just be whatever it is exactly suppose to be. Don't let anyone make you feel like your not worth it. Open your eyes so you can see that now I love me. I may forgive some things but I bet I'll never forget. The way that some have treated throughout my life. And how it made me feel way deep inside of my heart. I also hope that he takes away the pain, anger, & strife. Cause I really did begin to fall right from the very start. One day though something just changed about him. Like he wasn't even the same person that he was before. You can tell that he stopped eating health & going to gym. It's like he is completely a different man to his very core. I felt like I really lost a part of me or really my best-friend. Like some of my soul had been ripped out of my body. And the pain was so bad that I thought it would never end. The only thing that made it better was called a hot tawdy.