Rough Reality

Tears form in my eyes revealing my life the past and present, questioning myself where lies my future not knowing what’s meant, scolding myself trapped from the ways of my health, praying for deliverance yes and a little wealth, do I really want to point the blame, or is it I'm held restrained, mother father look what you’ve done to me, a punishment for the torn love between you and he, in my heart I know no ones at fault, building a stronger foundation in my heart a new path I will walk, my mind will be the only thing that makes my heart sing, years I've stayed strong for physically enduring the pain of sustained, rearranged from what my dreams were first made of, eyes finally opened to that in which I embrace with a hug, realisms I thought might have never to be me, subjected to this life of a harsh reality, reality I'm afraid of you, maybe its the things I know I have to go through, mind, heart, body and soul constricted from what lies deep within me, a loner always to be left alone it shouldn’t be, nonentity true life of reality has become my enemy, a hasten awakening belly aching from real truth, purity shot at me like bullets opened to death vest not bullet proof, life for me has been rambunctious, aching back breaking wishing through it all I would have been unconscious, memories raiding my mind letting me know I'm no better than this, as controversy of pain and love swim in my physical and mental no bliss, through it all I've become a phenomenon strong and tall, later to endure as a memory as I made it through it all.