Rotten

Look in my eyes and try to feel my pain. My memories collapse to the sound of her name. I remember nothing of sweet Emma Jane. Not a voice, not a moment just a familiar face. All I know is stories and what I gather from dreams. I'll never have the future That history planed for me, just a motherless child With demented haunting screams To afraid to let them out I just cant take the pain. I've never felt happiness Just a void, I'm a pain filled carcass. so annoyed Deep down I am rotten A joyless boy who's all but just forgotten how to love, the way his mother taught him. So I push away all the affection people show me, and pretend That no one around me knows me Can't comprehend that I am fully broken. I can't mend this heart I hold before me. There is no end To the suffering that controls me. so again I pretend to live a life with, No hate, No pain No lies, No gain. Just fate