Rotted From the Inside

Rolling onward, toward the goal, Only slowing for a moment. Take the time, enjoy the roses That is what I was told. Everyone told me I did too much, Did I heed advice, no. Fear drove me, fear consumed me, Razed the ambitions I had, Only for a moment, I grasped at a glimmer, Maybe, I thought, I could touch the intangible. Terrible, liar, I always was. How can someone else believe, when I don’t. Everything fell down. Inside, I thought, inside is safe - Nowhere is safe, failure the only option. Somewhere, I’m laughing at my own tears, I never knew how funny it was, to watch a person collapse. Dread is a beautiful motivator, and a terrible mistress, Everyone tried to warn me, did I listen, no.