Reluctance Refinery

i represent an invisible wall to you everytime you walk by i wish i was a magician only for you everytime you walk by i would create the most amazing art for you everytime you walk by i would totally erase the maze of confusion for you everytime you walk by the bridge of rejection sends my inner fear into ascension i want to fall off intentionally when i imagine the natural scent of you internally i do jumping jacks internally i do squat thrusts externally i do speed walks externally i do the shy guy stroll everytime you walk by i guess i deserve to be the ghost as practice for the sport of your resistance i wish i had a pickaxe i wish i had a mallet i wish i had a poker....anything to to help extend my arms everytime you walk by now the day is done now the night becomes the masterful bully now the dawn of day teases me with its indecisiveness now the apex of the torture begins for me again everytime you walk by