Redemption

I've finally found my road to redemption, despite getting lost a few times Through the tears shed and blood shed, I wasted time wishing I could rewind There's still some road blocks and obstacles, the path isn't clear But I know where I'm going because my road to redemption is here I've made many mistakes, it all started at a young age No one else is to blame, I was the ome to fall victim to my dumb ways I'm a good man with some bad traits I'm finally on the pursuit of happiness after many sad days I always thought my dad not being around gave me an excuse to act reckless I thought my mother not being around gave me a reason to sleep around and not stay for breakfast I learned that you can only avoid True love until Cupid hits you with that deadly strike But somehow I managed it by spending time in strip clubs and having heavy nights I wish I never self-harmed, But I'm thankful I found the strength to put the blade down Even if I've still not got all of that self hate out The more I care, the more I push you away, So I cause my own heartbreak Breaking up with Stacey was my biggest mistake It's took me 2 years to realise that, I guess I'm not the smartest I'm painting a picture, But I wish I wasn't the artist A little over a week ago I had to have a knife wrestled off me, and had to talk to the mental health team My world collapsed, My fake smile wasn't enough to block out my crying screams I was on the verge of suicide and I lost 2 friends that night who think I'm crazy now The man in the mirror is the only person I have that can save me now I'm still recovering from the pain, but What I've learned from that Is every setback is made for a comeback I need to start taking care of myself that's a self observation I've gone from drinking weekly to drinking in moderation I hope I can find true love with a great girl But it will be difficult as I've already flirted with half of the female population I'm taking each day at a time, as I continue working on me I'm growing daily, so tomorrow will be a new version of me I'm letting it all be known, So I don't have any old skeletons searching for me The ones who left me, just weren't deserving of me I'm far from perfect, I'm a good man with some bad traits But I'm on the pursuit of Happiness after a lot of sad days I've overcame so much worse, so there's nothing for me to fear My road to redemption is here