Realization

Why must I do this, deaden my heart once more, and face this, Realization one more time. I feel so confused, so apart inside, I wish my heart would fuse, and be whole one more time. But again I must, break me down, For the flesh is weak, and my heart misleads. My eyes see, everyone else loving, and having fun. When I'm alone. I guess its not my time, but wish it were, so I can stop these feelings, and feel better inside. Well day and day, I must deaden my heart, so that I won't be broken. Broken where it can't be fixed. Well I know what I must do, that I must move on, I hope someone will be there, at the end of this tunnel.