Cecilia Macfarlane Poet Rhyme

Ready To Burst

I'm so fed up with your wild accusations
Over the top ridiculous speculations 
I don't have a secret life on this poetry site
So no need to creep my page day and night

I enjoy leaving comments on others poems
While you grimace until your mouth foams
I'm not cyber cheating through soup mail
Stop taking righteous gulps from the holy grail

So many poems profess my undying love to you
Unjustified is the turmoil your putting me through
Get some confidence, grow a backbone or two
For your insecurities are not becoming on you

Your thinking borders on paranoia, it's alarming
While your indignation's are disturbingly disarming  
Are you clinically depressed, bi-polar or doing drugs
Your invisible knife is raised while giving me hugs  

Don't want my friends husbands, co-workers or neighbor
You thinking that causes me more pain then being in labor
You think I'll sleep with anyone that gives me attention
Damage YOU done to my psyche is beyond comprehension 

No man will ever love me, I'm just a plaything your said
I'm aghast that these thoughts are even in your head
It's the accuser who's usually doing the transgression
Punishing others for their own sins, a sick oppression

How can you say you love me, yet think the absolute worst
The eggshells are no longer cracking, they are ready to burst
My patience is withered, I'm furious and stressed to my core 
This mental abuse is killing me I won't tolerate this no more!


"Sometimes walking away has nothing do with weakness, and everything to do with strength. We walk away not because we want others to realize our worth and value, but because we finally realize our own." ~ Robert Tew

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Andrea Dietrich May 22, 2015 at 6:44 PM hey, girl. I am getting off here now. Just can't find a new one of yours to read!! Happy Memorial weekend!

Nicole Ussery April 15, 2015 at 8:25 AM The #1 way to stay strong is not caring what people think about you. There is someone out there for everyone...you just need to find that person. Nobody will ever know you as well as yourself. Keep searching for that person. To those that has done damage to your heart all you need to do is split apart. Cecilia Macfarlane April 18, 2015 at 3:47 PM Thanks Nicole for your sound advice.

Eileen Manassian April 5, 2015 at 2:45 AM My sweet friend...I'm so sorry to read this and to know that you are suffering this way. :( Hang in there and don't let others' perception cloud your mind. You know your own heart. Sending you hugs Cecilia Macfarlane April 12, 2015 at 9:40 PM Thanks my dear, I'm getting stronger everyday. Hugs

Paul Callus April 2, 2015 at 1:50 PM Jealousy is a slow killer; hope this is just an imagined write; would not want to be in such a situation. This also reminds me of one of Linda's latest poems! Take care. hugs // paul Cecilia Macfarlane April 12, 2015 at 9:50 PM Unfortunately this is all true, I gave my all and still wasn't enough.

Andrea Dietrich April 1, 2015 at 11:11 PM Cecelia, unfortunately I think about half the male population has this insecurity or jealousy "bug" inside them. My husband is a bit this way, but he hates poetry so much, he won't even try to check out my activity. hahaha. geeez, we are just posting our poems and loving the poet's life!! it sounds like things not good at all for you at the moment. Hope you are just mostly letting off steam!! Luv, Andrea Cecilia Macfarlane April 12, 2015 at 9:45 PM Wish it were steam, it is all true. Let to the Ultimatum, tired of being accused of stuff I'm not doing. Finally over between us, now I can heal.

Joseph May April 1, 2015 at 9:56 PM This is the worst type of abuse Cecelia...I am very sorry you are going through this torment...Hope that things work out... .... Cecilia Macfarlane April 12, 2015 at 9:46 PM Thanks Joseph....I tried my best but I couldn't reason with him. For the best, now I can heal.

Richard Lamoureux April 1, 2015 at 5:11 PM I grew up in a home that was tainted by jealousy so this one strikes a chord. I hope it is not something you are currently dealing with. If it is I hope for both your sake that he seeks counciling. Cecilia Macfarlane April 12, 2015 at 9:57 PM To seek help one must realize their behaviour is wrong, I was always wrong, he always right, I was in a no win situation. It's now over and it's for the best for he was slowing killing me. Let the healing begin!