Random Thoughts Part 1

In a new place, I'd like to call home. Meeting lots of people, but still feel alone. Everyday is a struggle, don't know what to do. I live for the moment, that moment is you. I hate not being with you, I feel you are my prize. Sent down from the heavens, I'm feeling alive. The problem with this, is I hate what I'm feeling. My walls are enclosing, from the floor to the Ceiling. My mind is screwed, I can't explain why. I know I can't have you, that kills me inside. I love everything about you, and it's making me crazy. I can't call you my girl, my one true love, my baby. People ask me about this and about that. Don't know how to respond, I'm about to crack. They ask me things, but I just change the station. I go to my friends, they're my rock, my foundation. I don't have a family, and I'm not asking for one. My friends are MY FAMILY, ever since day one. These are my thoughts, With no one else's help. I'm putting them all in a cabinet, on the top shelf.