Ramble

Heavy hearted over what I have to loose Over things I have to choose, Over what I've left behind, Over strenght I've yet to find. Heavy hearted over missing you, when the day seems hard to do,too tired to see it through And my positive thoughts are few, Heavy hearted over things I can't control. Over situations I didn't help unfold,over people and news that's told, Over words spilling forth and doing the rounds, over eyes staring me into the ground, But I can't make them understand that it wasn't me, That I didn't know, And that it hurts me too..and I'm broken in two, my positive thoughts are few and I'm struggeling to see the day through, I just want to be seen as me, want to be who I am, Let them know I'm different and calm, week and mild and gentle and thoughtful and just want to be held and be told everything's ok, Be helped through the day by just one friendly smile, One word of hope, One gentle hug to help me cope, Just someone throw mw a safety rope, Arms are growing weary from fighting the waves Try to keep swimming but hours turn into days, and I'm just trying to survive, cop and get by, I NEED HELP SOMETIMES, And when the day ends I'm alone with my thoughts and nobody knows the price on my lots, So my heart is heavy and I just want you to know, That sometimes its hard to be alone.