Rainbow Roses - See Me Through

See me through All I say or do is true I admit it - I am ashamed... I am the one to be blamed For now, I'm the rueful, disdainful hue of blue Leave me be to my own surroundings... My own useless belongings I want to be anywhere but you're chambers of shame... You keep on chasing me down the road of self-blame Gravity-bound Without a sound Give me a shot of your shame I'll drink it in...my sympathy is not tame I guess I'll be a speck of nothing in your eyes I was confused to find that you were telling me lies You're not alone - I am stuck in my own home... A prison I am chained to, awfully on my own...nowhere to roam Save me...see me through... Gravity pulls me down... Rescue me from mourning dew... Weeping, sleeping, grieving, relieving myself because of your deceiving ways that led me astray - you handed me a bad luck crown I've made up my mind to heal your wounds of the past You were left behind without a trace...I'll try to keep pace With your heart that pounds satisfaction into my blood at last I'm losing my mind...I'm hanging in there with sweat trickling down my grimy face I thought it over with your echoing voice, ringing in my ears I have an infatuation towards you for a long time, seems like years I need to tell you what's on my mind since you're departure left me shattered in shards of sadness I wanted to caress your face that shines triumphantly like the sun during the arrival of the dawn...dousing upon me delight that leads to inner success I don't want to give in to the downfalls Of my ever-fixated free-falls, though you haven't answered my calls You're not a waste of space - you are a glorious grace You are a precious, radiant rose with a wondrous trace I am above your spell Above your heaven-like hell I hate the thing I've become - A monster that's cold, bold, dumb and numb Drinking rage's rum Drunk off the liquor of lament Covered in corruption's cum Praying desperately and every word I said, I meant... I guess I'll be a speck of nothing in your eyes I was confused to find that you were telling me lies You're not alone - I am stuck in my own home... A prison I am chained to, awfully on my own...nowhere to roam Save me...see me through... Gravity pulls me down... Rescue me from mourning dew... Weeping, sleeping, grieving, relieving myself because of your deceiving ways that led me astray - you handed me a bad luck crown I've made up my mind to heal your wounds of the past You were left behind without a trace...I'll try to keep pace With your heart that pounds satisfaction into my blood at last I'm losing my mind...I'm hanging in there with sweat trickling down my grimy face I thought it over with your echoing voice, ringing in my ears I have an infatuation towards you for a long time, seems like years I need to tell you what's on my mind since you're departure left me shattered in shards of sadness I wanted to caress your face that shines triumphantly like the sun during the arrival of the dawn...dousing upon me delight that leads to inner success I had an illness LOL - silly me - no wonder I was in distress and in this mighty mess Live life to the plenty - smell the rainbow roses of ravishing grace and it will leave you with a dazzling trace Nothing felt so much better than what I feel - this merry joy a big deal and I cherish the awesome appeal Elegant Holy Spirit showers upon me now somehow... Soon, success is at hand in the near future...past phades away oh so fast and it casts away into the mountainous sea So ready to take the challenges and surprises of every single day - now, I understand somewhat and I make a stand - now what?