Quirkiness of My Memory

no (apparent) rhyme nor reason (satisfactorily) explains academic disposition, ideally suited (swiftly tailor made, and harried styled) unflattering venomous wicked xhenemy (fill in choicest expletive) damn cruelest "meanies" always in season winter, spring, summer, or autumn, psychological rabid bullying and teas'n, which only exacerbated ma deathly coffin and wheeze'n. Avenging beastly, eagerly, and hungry knuckleheads, rip-snorting, analogous to Doctor Zeus characters, vis a vis stomped, and trampled upon my wuss self, who appeared as a listless, passive, puss see footing, and timid complex edifice christened Matthew Scott Harris, who regularly got pushed, shoved, and verbally gored in utero potential quintessential no salvation from Unitarian lord ugly vicious wretched insults liberally poured (pre snapchat, instagram, hash-tagged age) roared increased spell of losing measured necessary pridefulness scored requisite susceptibility toward brow beating, name calling, plus tossed brickbats staged early life, viz psychological schizoid state courtesy hateful nemesis within corporeal lodge warred. malevolent habitués received permanent residency thence "green lighted" status since birth I cannot sense sub billy understand (near) total recall particularly names no matter offense of classmates and/ or teacher's, hence especially dumb founding since defense less "boy" did not shine as a star student as is if he (me) took emotional absence. plus to add insult to injury, my mouth stayed hermetically shut, near invisibility designated nut tin beat pluperfect "scapegoat de jure," such intimidation found me feeling thrashed in the gut where (stellar) qualifications only made cut ting worse, (essentially attributed to genetically inscribed behaviors, characteristics, habits, et cetera) immediately designated yours truly most puny, and quietest convenient but of any atheistic, ethnic, and/or idiotic jokes.