Queen

Laying down in bed without you beside me Keeps me awake with my confidence shrinking. The quiet part of my mind is locked and you have the key. You stop my brain from over-thinking, stop my heart from sinking. I would give anything for you to stay. For you to be the queen to my king and never go away. But you need to be free. Your heart doesn’t have my same yearning To never be apart in life’s tumultuous sea. An ocean whose crashing waves have me churning. I’ve been learning to keep my space. We’ve met midway. And to some degree my luck has been turning. Lately things seem a little less grey. So I hold myself back and plea, to whatever power is listening, that you will always want to be with me. That one day this fling will be a permanent thing. When I look at you it’s so hard not to say, “I love you, darling”. I need you in my life to feel okay. At the end of the day we sit on the couch recollecting and I can’t help but ask, “Will you stay?” Only to be given the answer I was expecting. “Not today”.