Puzzles Have Patterns

i am an alcoholic addict chemical dependent co dependent my life is unmanageable cannot control anything without something so i joined the army went to missouri saw the woods same as the ones i drank in and got lost in back home but did well because i was familiar with hell went to mississippi belonged for a moment hard core soft shell hurricale hit did what i could but did it for myself had my own agenda because i was familiar with hell went to california took another go at it and built a training site same as the one i built when i was young and in trouble and fell because i was familiar with hell came back to missouri to shoot my m16a2r we were supposed to go camping but it was too cold just like my dad said when i was three years old and like i cared or complained it was just as well because even then i was familiar with hell i went to an airport drank a gibson to forget the troubles that i saw how i did my own laundry went from sugar to something worse and i won't tell because i was familiar with a place called hell a blizzard hit my state the day after thanksgiving and i said yes i'll be there it will give me a chance to help all i did was drink and dance and do things i had regret for but oh each day i'd sell because i was familiar with hell so i moved and moved back met a few guys i despised, and hated me back so i drank and met someone who let me and now i'm in mexico under someone's spell because i was familiar with hell so i say all these things happened to me by choice and not listening to that little voice that says stop wait a minute think about it and all i could do is tell that little voice it's just as well i already know because i've made and chosen for myself a life familiar with hell