Proper Burial

Let the casket be open, let my heart be on display, so that all can see what you put it through, and they can witness the decay I want you to be there front and center so that you can see, the bitterness in their eyes over what you did to me I want you to be questioned and I wish that I could be there to hear your lies, how you didn’t mean to treat me that way, that you thought that I would be fine How could you not have known what your leaving would do to me? Did you not know how much I loved you? Did I not express it clearly? Were tears not shed then, could you not hear the weakness in my voice? Did you not know that I was breaking in two, when you made your choice? How could you not know that I was dying inside, that I loved you with every part of me? Couldn’t you see it in my eyes that you made me complete? Was it because I let you go, because I wanted you to be happy? Don’t you understand that I didn’t want to, but I was doing what needed to be? I released you and in doing so I released me, my soul it went with you, but you never returned it to me When we would talk could you not hear the pain in my voice, my hearts silent cries? I thought you knew me well enough to know that I could never disguise I told you time and again that I wanted to be with you, that I would wait until you were ready, that I would do whatever you needed me to But as time moved on you found other ways to fill your time, and me I tried to move on and pretend that I was fine I still thought of you every single, painful day, and tears were still shed occasionally when my emotions got in the way So now here you stand to pay your respects to my broken heart, where were these sweet words long ago when I needed them the most? It alright you can shed a tear and you can say all that you need to say, I am still here with you listening in the gloom and gray Please let me rest now that my time has come, you have done enough to me, I’m sorry but what is done is done I’m glad that you’re here though, at least now my heart gets the goodbye that it deserves, although it deserved it long ago when you left me so broken and hurt.