Portion of the Bone

Trying to find something to think about... sporting yellow shorts, & an old blue and white Jersey... on my way to get socks to play soccer today... ...My legs are dry... I can't afford the skin scrubby I need but I can afford new cleats and socks giggling, trying not to giggle cause I shouldn't be giggling... ...Smiling, life is harder than I ever thought it could be... ...broke...my sponsor didn't show up, many things actually... that could justify self-pity for a short time.....its tough when trying means nothing will get better for a long time....its hard praying when nothing will get better for a long time... I know you love me God, but I grow suspicious ...wondering if my God wants to kill me sometimes... It's that hard....I pray to you not to throw me a bone then... throw me a portion of the bone... still nothing yet... So, I'm going to play soccer and wait on Him...