Paternal Link Forfeited and Forsaken

Paternal Link Forfeited And Forsaken! Irreparable father/daughter bond, particularly with eldest an ache that reinforces inadequacy, keeps yours truly awake, more so now versus countless years elapsed, when cherished bond did break since ample hours prevail, while said progeny (i.e. star student) diligently accomplishes, successful swansong swimmingly freestyle with her (man) drake near perfect match, who will never induce emotional earthquake, perhaps most readers would write me off as a flake, whose offspring (averred same one) understandably discarded every keepsake from this papa, who reckons this boomerang fallout, finds me gasping for air as if drowning in a murky lake and airs woe, which crimps self assessment make king (mentally revisiting trysts), an irreversible mistake promulgating additional regret atop how I did muckrake a chunk of existence, without revealing namesake of responsive gals, whose memory of concupiscence, which might be dulled and opaque I hold myself myself totally culpable enduring (just dessert - yeah....actually cake) since impetus emanated squarely on these slumped shoulders torturous punishment doth rake hot coals over blistering soul some days...not caring if aye live or die although deliberate demise, would shake into bajillion jagged fractures, the mental health of youngest (no matters rarely sees her papa...professes unbreak cobble love (undeserved), thus asper daily effort to expunge grievousness self inflicted, which nobody can unmake... (also upon spousal) hurt I reckon...my "FAKE" short lived Casanova days will keep this bloke wide awake even after gratefully dead.