Passionately Falling Into the Abyss

Zenith from a telescope Chose this device at times to view the slightest hope Fractured elements of my past seem to have their grip For a brief time to reflect on struggle as rain starts to drip Having faith that a single memory would significantly improve you Captivating true affection for somebody special because I don't want to lose you Proving that my worthiness is not minuscule, I approach with warm intentions In the same field I'm fading desperately in need for attention Not to mention I have Dysthymia, a ligament to severe depression Regardless of my atmosphere, I remain strong So when I finally meet a girl, she can say I was the right one all along Usually I'm up before dawn thinking of her future presence Been riding solo for 20 years, digging myself out of the hole I fell in I made negative choices that brought me near a closed door All the pain I go through speaks to the ones already in storage Collected notes and journals locked away when my tears start to pour Difficult for me to accept the fact I'm distant from the girl I adore Broken artificially due to the chemicals that consumed me during birth Thanks to Mom I'm cursed with lack of blood flow when I'm trying to learn Aggravation reached it's climax while I roast and burn At work their explanations are never clear and firm Only answer is God until I eternally yearn