Paper Wait

you call me when its good for you which is hardly ever its like I'm a convient friend one who wont sever. keeping me in mind you say to yourself "oh i call her later" you stick me on the shelf. You take me down when there is none left one doll friend of many my heart is going deaf. what is it with you and your "I'm sorry"s if you took the time you wouldn't have to make up stories. Am i that convient? am i your chore? what keeps you around? Our friendship is on the floor. you have tons of people you talk to each day i guess i should understand how easy it is to throw your best friend away. "I love you so much Ravin your the best of a friend to me" your words fall upon deaf ears anymore what ever happened to WE? " you will always be the one i come to" " you are my bestest friend" you say these thing so carefully in hopes it never ends. "I'll call you later" "no not today" " I'm at the bar" " cant find a way" when i call you are so occupied you haven't listened to a word i have said " hold on" 8 or 9 times the "call you back" lies you fed you know i am here and i love you so much i come to you about everything its my heart that is crushed I thought i was good enough for you to come to anytime or day why is it you put me on this back burner and leave me here to decay. you'll see one day there is none like me your TRUE friend is still here but yet you choose not to see you seem not to care as much as i thought you did why should i still be here? because i am a REAL friend. you have crushed me a few times only to see me come back you use me when there is no one else you talk to me to pick up slack. so here i sit a paper wait waiting to be used again will you ever realize I'm your number one fan? i keep all this dust hidden on that shelf you put me on waiting for a call from you why am i not gone? so i sit here today writing aloud spilling my heart to you hoping you hear my sound. keep from that shelf keep me close to you don't use me when I'm convient I have better things to do I love you with all my heart Is it impossible to see? I try to be the best i can be to you but what about me? "its a best friend thing" is what we used to say you seem so distant now what made you go away? leaving you with this please know i am here just give it some thought and keep me near.