Painful Lessons In Love

There is always joy in pain Lessons learnt and everything won’t be the same But you drive me insane Each time we try you’re always first to shift the blame Jealousy strikes like it did with Cain And I always have to sacrifice myself like they do for fame You’ve lost your ability to appreciate me I feel like I’m alone I miss the way things used to be Your heart is cold as stone Your arms used to be my heaven, my home Now it’s a ghost house, a place where my existence is now unknown Each night I cry and think of you The love we had was true But now you’ve become the pain I feel We’ve lost the joy that we once knew Maybe our hearts grew too fast until they blew And left no trace of our once new love, not even a clue I wish we could re-write what was But I guess it’s not meant to be Although we now walk separate ways I’ll always treasure our memory A memory that never fades away A memory that makes me cry everyday A memory that makes me smile everyday A time when attention is all I could pay I will never forget I will never regret You were part of my essence but now I’m destroyed I’m trapped within the sorrows that your cold heart employed Who am I to continuously withstand the pain in this world Who am I to fight against nature I have learnt to breathe this pain And let my body, heart and soul adjust I know that I will never be the same But trying to move forward is a must In my God I shall place my trust May my sorrows be taken The past turned to dust My life once again mine to own… I pray it happens soon Before I turn into a monster Heartless Feeding off the pain of others So they feel what I felt So they feel the hand that to me was dealt So they feel the loss of hope you made me feel So fooled was I to think love could be real I thought you were everything For you I would kneel But you only left me broken Now I’m trying hard to heal I never thought it’d be hard to feel I never thought asking you to pay attention was an expensive bill It hurts to change, my eyes hurt when this heartbreak became my dawn But the sun opened my eyes And the only person I choose to give my all now Is the one in the mirror.