Pain In My Heart

Right now there is a hollow feeling in this spot where I breathe I need to find out what is because I just don't feel like me. Is it this life that I lead or this path that I follow no sorrow shown I don't sob nor beg or borrow. Visiting my family brings me up and brings me down they show me love when I'm around - their in spirit - mind not around. ....feel me? I talk to God about this pain in my heart everysince I was birthed there's been rain from the start. It's like a flame sparked continuously changing the way of my thoughts my name's probably already engraved in a couffin waiting to drop. I wish I was famous, someone pave my name in the park's concrete walkways place my brain in some shock. This pain's hard to bare this feeling tear it apart I wonder how He feels when He spreads His light everyday in the dark. These days you have to pay to be smart making remarks about this governments system filled with alot of rasicm we started. No we black or we white or we yellow just we ignorant there's prolly pain in my heart because we parents can't uplift our kids. The gift's from His hands He demands you teach to others no beef but peace and comfort but instead we sleep...He loves us.