Pain - My Kryptonite -

Pain has never scared me The chance of a cut or scrape never once made me wary Watching the blood rush to the surface following a freshly scraped knee When I was little, first intrigued me As time moved on pain took new forms Evolving from nicks and bumps to aching emotional sores Though the threat of a new gash to my soul Did not slow me down as I went down and down the rabbit hole New people, new faces, I let them all inside my heart Even after it was shattered, crushed, and ripped apart One relationship after another, hoping one would do better than the last Desperately hoping the pain would drown out my past The suffering boils over to a blade against my skin Not from surgery by a doctor, but my own masochist fruition Thinking causing more pain would dull out the rest When all it really did was place a heavier burden on my chest Though now those moments have come and gone Pain still draws me with its sweet lulling song I am a true "glutton for punishment" as they say Living life with the motto of all work and very little play Pain that once haunted me I now revel in It is different you see when I safely let the bruises bloom against my skin No more mental anguish I am trying to release Just the gentle caress of pain chaperoning me to peace Once upon a time, I abused it to cope Now I use it to bring myself nothing but hope