Oxygen

I'm trying so hard not to be so weak but you are getting the best of me. Tear me apart and dismantle me, I cannot stop, though your not what I need. You've dissected my thoughts, you are my weakness. You are one of my deepest dark secrets. Your stuck in my head, you flow through my dreams, one little taste is all I that need. The more I ignore it, the stronger it gets. You are a danger, but I ignore all of your threats. Your tearing me down, your making me sick, someone please help me, I've lost my grip. Scream in my head and pull at my skin, you are the most deadliest sin. You take away pain, on the inside and out. I'm under your control, cant find a way out. I'm begging for you, I want you so bad. Then I push you away, "stay away from the past". You are the devil, you are insane. You are the angel that "takes away pain". It happened so fast, just a couple of times. Now you are eating away at my mind. I am your toy, I am your puppet. You took control all of a sudden. I love you, I hate you, I cant seem to forget. The very first time, I truly regret. You make me feel like I'm light as a feather, you make me feel whole, you make me feel better. I crave for your high and I thirst for your magic, this is pathetic and so very tragic. Round and round and round we go, until you've devoured every bit of my soul. You take from my talent and freeze up my brain, I cannot think when your in my veins. Who knew something could cause so much disaster, you are pure evil, you are my master. I am ashamed and I am afraid. My life is ruined because of the decisions I've made. I've lost all control of my life, my fingers tremble as I sit here and type. I anger at the thought of your existence, I tell myself no but I don't seem to listen. When I swallowed you, you swallowed me whole, I am too deep down inside of this hole. Reality has set, I'm addicted to you, no more denial, sad, but true.