Over and Over

Over and over it hurts
When I think it can't get worse
It's like cycle, rinse hurt, repeat
No matter how hard I try, 
I'm not complete

You were my idol
I wanted to be like you
Since you've wished me gone
Sometimes I turn blue

In every moment every day in the last 15 years. 
I could end a drought with my large basin of tears
No matter how hard I try to get over you, you're there
You're the matter that made me
And in nearly every moment of every day for the last 15 years
I wished it wasn't so. 

People think I'm strong, 
but I don't
Part of me feels weak
That I couldn't complete what you wanted me to

Part of me feels weak
For listening while you continued to speak
When I could have just walked away

A little part of me thought that maybe..
One Day, ….maybe one day we'd be together again
But she's still there. 
She's the hair in my food
And no matter how I cut it, or wrap it around my fork
She puts me in a shitty mood.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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