Out of Ideas

Why does it always come to this. The more I climb the deeper I sink in the abyss. I try to break free but to this life has me constricted. Need to think of something, but my thoughts are so conflicted. I keep up the fight, but I'm starting to forget the reason why. Cause I can never receive true freedom no matter how hard I try. It's hard to win a fight when your battling yourself. And I know what I'm doing to myself isn't good for my health. But it's difficult to win a war when your enemy is you. I'm all out of ideas, please tell me what I'm suppose to do.