Only In the Darkness

You conjured vulnerability Everyone wants to see that side of me You conjured vulnerability...possibly... You want to free me from the chains of anxiety Will you do that for me? You conjured up demons in my brain You drove them away by acting insane Refrain from killing my self-esteem Before I choke to death and scream Before I provoke you to anger at the seams Before I decide not to mend your broken dreams Yeah, you conjured so much feelings inside You conjured many emotions that won’t subside Ride away the pain in my lonesome heart The pain that kills me softly from the start You conjured loneliness that crawls inside me You conjured happiness that lingers beside me You conjured distress that hangs my neck in a noose of despair You conjured up feelings for me and it didn’t even seem fair You left me vacant in a lightyear moment I’m just a teardrop away from being as happy-go-lucky as an infant this instant These tears I cradle in my soul... It’s an ugliness that is so beautiful These fears I cradle underneath these eyes It’s a truth beneath the lies...the bottomless lies... The avarice lies you told me yesteryear - That day you told me you loved me, dear Yes, you lied to me once more You let my wings of flight sinks faster and faster and faster...it’s all a blur It no longer soars to the core What do you think I should do if my life is falling at the brink of disaster? You are considerate and kind When you left all of me behind You are considerate and wise When you made me close my eyes You are full of hatred and deceit The words you say I won’t repeat You are full of happiness it seems You made me lose touch of reality by falling at the seams...along with my broken dreams Yearning for change in our lives today Burning away the doubt and dismay You scorch aflame my mystifying rain I’m falling victim to this unstoppable pain Baby, don’t let go I cried a many tear for you oh so long ago Baby, I don’t know Why I have fear in my heart in the undertow Only in the darkness, I see light in the abyss Why do I feel distress? And why do I feel happiness Amongst the starlight? I will make it alright tonight Only in the darkness Only in the darkness Shelter me from sadness Shelter me from madness Shelter me from sorrow Shelter me from yesterday To seek another tomorrow Some say the dismay will fade away Only in the darkness, I have seen hope amongst the stars Only in the darkness, I can undo the distress in your scars Only in the darkness Can you see the starlight tonight... It will wipe away all your tears of fright And fill you with utmost might... I’m never alright I’m never alright Unless the darkness can make me feel alright To gain the energy and motivation to fight tonight Wrapped up in wretched woe Bestow upon me joy in heart Entrapped in midnight glow Know that I love you, Even when I fall apart Wrapped up in solitude I need the attitude of gratitude I want something a lot more Than this adoration to the core Know that I love you, Even when I don’t anymore I’m never alright Not this feeling tonight I’m never alright I tried to fight the fight I’m never alright I tried to take flight I’m never alright Unless you save me this night Unless you save me tonight Until then, I don’t feel it... Conjuring up midnight lament bit by bit Only in the darkness Will I seek light tonight