Only He Can Undo

In a way, this worn-out frame is becoming something new…but, there’s hardly anything aversion and/or love together can undo I still haven’t even realized myself in a long while… I have accidently lost hundreds of my poetry documents unfortunately – it’s like the frustration due to searching for a misplaced shoe Hm, well, I don’t even have a phone number to dial! Because I haven’t had a phone in a few months now… Because I haven’t had a paycheck forever…somehow… Yeah, something’s missing in the equation of our empathetic, elegant endurance as a bigger whole Someone has decided to leave me to grieve on an empty mattress and some blankets Words and such can’t fill in this gap in this life that I long for – let life takes its terribly peculiar toll I’m the one that can’t sleep countless nights…constantly awakened by sudden regrets Because I haven’t changed one bit nowadays it seems… I guess I am this living nightmare, cradling broken dreams! Can’t help, but be angry – I let the tears reverberate through my brain of I’m-still-alive I’m sorry, I can’t help myself…or yourself… I yelp for help – that same help I’ve hoped for for many years…but, I know I will survive I’m a worthless magazine on a lonely shelf Because I was left in the arms of demons instead of angels… Rejection accepted me in its shards of shame in all angles… Instead of engrossing my time into sorrow, I will look forward to another sweet tomorrow… Hoping that yesterday decays into the delirious shroud of clouds – now, that would be sublime! Multi-dimensional delusions and corrupted trances filled my gullible, childish gaze once upon a time Because I am still that foolish, insecure, young man who’s becoming wise very little by little… The past decisions I made…I just wish they wouldn’t reflect me, making my faith so brittle… I will keep on reading the Psalms and the Proverbs for the uplifting of His spirit inside me… I will keep on reading and skimming through the pages of ancient Knowledge of truth, you see? I will have blissful benevolence and a sacred, exceptional love from God that I can’t quite put a right finger on Unconditionally, I will keep pressing on, even if dread and deceit try to come my way before the break of dawn I will try to have confidence and humility all the days of my life I will persistently persuade pride to leave along with selfish strife