Only God Knows Why

When the memories are gone what is left? The pain in my heart? The hurt in my chest? How long will it linger? Hover above like a cloud, I never wanted to be a disappointment, I just wanted them to be proud. I've let them down in so many ways, my mind has grown dark, like the darkness in a cave. Will the light ever shine through? Only God knows what I will do! The smile on my face is not true, the water that falls, falls so blue. Not knowing which way to turn, the scars upon me will always burn. I just want to make my wrongs right, out of mind...out of sight. The wounds on the outside don't compare to the one's that no one see's, they would bring the average person to their knees. How i've survived...only God knows why!