Once Upon a Hundredth Time Pt 3

We all I say things that we don't mean- sometimes lack consideration. But once those things are recognized- (shouldn't) we seek reconciliation? The truth of that, it lies within- the depth of someones love. And value comes unveiled- when hardships shared, come push to shove. So if one, of the two souls- should find itself astray. It should be very evident- the steadfast soul should walk away. So why is it my habit- to try and justify his wrongs? One minute he's my bestfriend- he next has stringing me along. I want to make myself believe- that it's influenced by substances. Or likely it is driven- by untreated mental illasses.. 260 days so far- and the light we share is dimming. But I also know, myself,- that it takes time to promote healing. A fine line now presents it self- which I've had to face before. Is staying here enabling? - or should I wait just a little more? See I seek such answers- in hopes I'll do more good than harm. But I'm breaking my own boundaries- not even seeing just how far. So then I feel a disconnect- a skewed view of reality. Resulting in my mind- regressing to insanity. So now, I too, lash out- and question "Am I being fair?" Pressure coming from all sides- in ways my brain can't bear. I too have offered safety- and endlessly offered my help. But now, I see our failures- are 'cause we fail to help ourselves.