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My body lies Under an inch of snow Frozen, broken, Half-dead in the cold My spirit is gone, My eyes fixed, unmoving My mind is blank And my self is losing My veins are frozen with your passing Now winter has come and it been years since I've last seen The sun or anything resembling normality Reality seems like one big illusion All the people, coming and going Blur in an endless confusion In a fashion in which the passion is drained from me And I'll never believe that anything good will set me free How much longer until my branches break from underneath me and re-open old woulds, Open my make-shift sutures And rewrite my entire future How much longer do I have to lay here out in the cold, Freezing, pleading, being All that this body hasn't sold I'm crumbling and mumbling apart, Drifting and sinking into the dark where all my friends now live And where I've kept it here, on top Of this ice-covered abyss, my steps steady, but not enough for two Okay on the surface but not all the way through And I'm shaking and no one can hold my body and protect it from the quakes That echo from my heart Echoing the pain And echoing the stark Blackness filling in me And forever stalling the Changing seasons For reasons which I cannot find And cannot mend And I grieve for all I've lost and all I've hurt So for now I'll lie here trapped in ice and feeling the weights slowly breaking my shoulders Burning me to a smolder And you'll find that it never gets easier, you just Bend and break, adjust yourself to the weather, Back facing the sun and you feel colder and colder Because you don't gain anything, feel anything, You just get older