Old Habits They Die Hard

i saw you standing next to a wall keen i've seen you collected dark shy wiry tall so i picked you up took you home you just wanted someone to hold that's what you told me so i was onto you from the start knew right away you'd pull and pick me apart i've got a cast iron around my heart from days before i knew so well guys like you they made life hell and tears of sorrow in my eyes swell and oh i know it's just as well you'll get yours someday this is getting old outsold again and again old just temporary ordinary me i can't make you hang around i'll throw myself away just look at me my misery a non-stop flow since infancy temporary ordinary me one night ruined everything that's al right i did not request a ring anyway not much left to say it's all over and done with should've been could've been would've been more prepared this time a little harder to read your wants and my needs you were a catch but i don't care you only wanted someone to have fun with then run away flashing your dashing doting, taunting, grin i quit playing this impossible game no stakes to claim they're just too high and i never win just temporary ordinary me i can't make you hang around i'll throw myself away just look at me this tragedy it started with your flattery just temporary ordinary me i found it's better i'm alone i got a grip handle it no waiting for the phone to say your name i keep on i write words that speak my regret and my shame there is nothing good guys like you bring girls like me just deprive me drive me kicking and screaming back to square one in a self-medicating therapy it's over me and under me i'm done with writing poetry to get on forget get over it and let it roll on and just be gone because you don't suffer like i do half my fault for trusting in you just temporary ordinary me i can't make you hang around or stop you when you stray just look at me miss fancy free you smooth talked it right from under me and held me close and kissed me right with eyes glued shut i closed mine tight but now i quit put my foot down i swear to it i'm passionate i'm not temporary far from ordinary you're deaf and dumb and lost if you can't see this new a little wiser version of me.