Oh my soul

I accepted I won't talk. And that my phone will sit back. But they are standing next to me, shouldn't I start a conversation? Or, shoud we just stay like that. I think while I hold my backpack tight in my both hands, and my feet touch one another. Just the breathing of us both I hear. Why is my mind suddenly so clear? Do they think I am weird for not talking? My laugh attracts way too many people, my Humor is coming actoss amusal. But didn't I chose to not open the door anymore? So the possibility is driven away? So I can't even come across by the different events, since the lake I cross is a different way. Or is it just way too far away?