Oh God I Cant Do This

It's been so long since that day changed my life and darkened everything around me I relive all the time minute by minute cant go with out crying I find my self wanting to call you until I remember I reach up as high as I can with my arms so wide It just aint right to still be here with out you near me, I'll say it clear while I hold back tears I feel so helpless some days I dont think I can live through this oh god I cant do this. So many plans we envisioned about growing up and getting old what promise the future hold, I tried so hard to run away from that day because I just didnt know what to say still to this day I feel so helpless some days I just dont think I can live through this oh god I cant do this. Contemplate visting your grave after all these years with so many fears I cant bare I hope you understand all this just was'nt part of the plan I feel so helpless some days I just dont think I can live like this oh god I cant do this. What I would'nt give for one day with you to tell you how much I love you it was a blast the times we had from little kids so close to adults I'm totally lost I find strength in memories of you and me but its not enough to calm the hurt, I feel so helpless some days I just dont think I can live like this oh god I cant do this I feel so helpless everything has changed I'm not the same as day's go bye can I get through this your truly missed oh god I cant do this oh god I cant do this.