Object permanence

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This was writen from memory, I originally wrote it in May of 1989. I wrote a great deal while I was in therapy. For the abuse I was subjected too as a child. I want to share this because as I have grown older I feel it's important to acknowledge the fact that love is still giant part of my life. For all those who read this and don't know quite how to digest it. I still love you for trying! With all my heart A.S.

It's dark in here; but I'll hang I should feel fear; I'm too young to understand such a thing Why do I miss your touch? I was a child; you were a teen— Life found no victim, just an object. Your reject taught me things from 3 till 9. Never had a childhood that was actually mine, Oh, mother, why are my words a lie? When his, you can not believe or deny How did my heart begin to love? A feminine touch so much... Was but a toy that knew none such Yet, here I am; cherishing the female form Enjoyed is every moment where touch is warm Finding happiness in long blocks and hours Remembering moments that are better than ours I picked up a pen for the first time to write you out Wound up to be a night of sleep that I did without By taking my innocence away from me I wrote things to damn you in poetry What a brother does, a child can not understand— Life later found no object, just permanence In this closet closed; from the bar, I hang

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CayCay Jennings

Date: 3/31/2025 5:20:00 PM

You poetically penned an emotive write expressing pain endured since a wee one. Lines wove your pain within my empathy layers. I believe (me): God had much for your soul to learn/teach/grow. I believe you accepted this path before birth. We all do, then forget, flounder, hurt. So, despite appearances, all was always in divine order. The mistake we too often make is NOT walking into our dark, we have to, if we want to find the light. U were given the gift of writing to aid your journey - CayCay

CayCay Jennings
Date: 4/1/2025 9:15:00 AM

Today says I must get out the door. Please read, "My Total Pain". Spirit told me to offer that poem to you. Libra sun, Virgo moon, ascendant, and mercury so I am primarily a mercury (rules Virgo) force delivery! Good to have crossed paths, not an accident ... CayCay

Anonomus Scorpio
Date: 4/1/2025 4:59:00 AM

Life is a constant journey of learning how to, make those two realms coexist. You can't understand your light if you don't accept your darkness. It humbles me by reading this, you're able to find empathy for me. I am grateful! A.S.

Paige Hind

Date: 3/14/2025 12:05:00 AM

I am sorry for your past. Poetry is indeed a therapeutic outlet. Still, beautiful poetry.

Anonomus Scorpio
Date: 3/15/2025 9:01:00 AM

I wish I could say I post on here for the good of sharing what I write, but selfishly it is because I want very few people in my world to see this side of me.