Numbing Pain

Feeling numb these days Or am i so blind Trying to read between hollow lines Feeling not myself anymore My mind tells my body its not so fine Wish i could just dispel these emotions Remove them and become just a shell Maybe then il feel like im not in hell Feeling rejected and neglected But its probably myselfs fault For not checking Sadness rains and with it tears fall I feel no one really cares at all Everyone just wants to drink in Valhalla's **** hall Norse mythology is just another story of Satan Trying to glorify his fall And who am i? I feel like no one at all Its so confusing When everything is riddled with images on a glass wall Sometimes i just dont care, this feeling is growing more raw Saying everything i feel until nothing is left to yield Until one day i feel ive become real A fade i feel like i am Ever transparent and still This heart I have... I wish i could kill Because there is so much it does feel In this weird ass existence im in Someone end my pain And make me a deal One that lets me either feel Or not to feel Just wish my pain wasnt a wound thats scared across My abandoned and broken heart from an age when I was as short as i was When i do kneel