Numb To You !

Hard as a rock, Strong as a tree! Hurt again and again? But your not breaking me! A cut is a wound, An insult? just a name. I wont let you get to me, I'll continue pushing in the strain. Do your worst! I can take your beating! Put me in my place, I can take the bleeding. I'll take it all, without any breaking! Do your best, I'll take all the taking! When I'm alone, and your far gone? Tears might flow? But you'll think I'm strong! I'll finally let it go, Falling down, bit by bit, On the brink of insanity? Then regain my grip! Broken and battered, on the verge of giving up? You wont see any of this! You'll think I'm strong enough! Nothing else matters, I'll never satisfy you, You may see a slight tear? and think you won? But You Didnt! I swear that on my sons! We all deal with it differently, The pain we feel inside? Some of us run? most of us hide. Giving up isnt an option;because anger always wins. We dont choose when the pain begins, We dont know how to stop it? As we beg for the end! I have some secrets I hide beneath my sleeves. With a million scars and bruises, that never let me be? When the pressure grows under the skin I hold so tight? I'll know it became too much? And begin letting go of my fight! My eyes shine from all the unshed tears? I cant disguise anymore all the hurt and fear. I wonder when its all going to let up? While trying to fight, maintain, and keep my head up! Times are hard and trying at its best? I should lay my head down to rest? Wanting to close my eyes, and bow my head in defeat? Just hold on a little longer, Not just yet? This will only make you stronger! I start to build my faith back up, preparing to dodge the next punch? I breath in slow, exhale deep. When walking away, Tears fall in discreet! The time has come to finally let go? Still I will never give you what you want! It will always be a different show. I will never break, the way you want. I will never let you see. You will never enjoy the breaking inside of me! Bring your pain forever? If you feel the need? But I promise on everything ! You will only Envy me! Watching it all, from a front row seat !