November 11th

I miss him so much My friends tell me It will all pass That young love Isn't ever real That he never treated me right But they never knew What I did to him He himself Never knew And never will know I can't stop dreading these thoughts I keep saying I don't care But I do; I really can't stop When he pushed I pulled When I pushed he ran He doesn't want it my way I don't want it his way The problem would stay if we do It's just got to pass Just give me a break already There are those days where I forget I forget what he did to me Just so I could talk to him It's pathetic how he used to call me It's pathetic how I answered I miss waking up to him I hate missing him He deserves a smart girl A pure girl An affectionate girl She's just not me And I'm all out of time And I'm all out of motivation They tell me I deserve the same But they don't know that side of me He's all I want And all I've loved And all I've truly hated But this is the end It's only the end, right? I don't know how to learn I don't know how to change I don't know how to change my ways I'll just stay here While he moves on And forgets all about me I never am on time We were young, we were dumb, we were drugged I still don't wanna do it his way No way in Hell am I gonna change I just wanna know I just wanna watch him go by So I could finally forget Oh, wait my phone's ringing Oh, wait I answer Oh, wait he's on my porch Oh, wait he's back Oh, no Endless Endless Endless