Nothingness

My anguish is metal heavy and tense Rusting my heart as I lead by mistake. Somethings awry in the cogs of my mind Spinning off-centre they've broke more than once, My youth was auspicious with seldom regret The future held prosper now bleeds in my shadow, My thoughts are attrocious and black as the night No feelings I fade in disgust of myself, Assuage my own sickness I smoke on my own Reflecting on things that assert my own nothingness, The allure of the feeling too sink in its depths And give in too darkness, Begs me. Absolve me of sin and free me of soul, Again and again and again..