Not So Blameless

As I look at the shattered glass On the floor With the blood dripping off of it All i can think of Is the pain The pain at least lets me know That i am alive The shattered glass like my shattered heart Cannot just be put back together again Even though I try I have made it myself the way it is This pain I inflict on myself over and over again Because I can't stand that look of disappointment on others faces One more time I can't take So i sabotage what i have And i shatter my heart once again Because if i hurt myself Then they don't have the chance to hurt me I only have myself to blame A blame i only have seen now This is not how it is going to be I am not going to run away I can't take this pain Not anymore Not one more time These walls around my heart Keep getting higher and higher No more not for him He would be the one that i take a chance on If i was ever given another chance I would give it my all I will not hurt me or anyone anymore Not because im a scared little girl That expects everyone to be like the last The one that took everything and threw it away Not anymore Im given it a shot Just one more time Because i know one thing for sure He is worth it