Not Broken Anymore

I found peace with myself, I'm not broken anymore I've managed to swallow what I was choking on before I faced my fears and I opened the door I'm at a place where I feel happy and I'm not broken anymore It feels like I'm in a dream state Things feel good and I've got a clean state No more fake smiles, this one right now is real I'm no longer holding onto things I've seen escape I learned to punch away the pain I was handed I've finally learned to stop using sex as a bandage I've stopped using girls as a plaster I focused on myself and started to see that I matter I used to drink daily to block things out Now I drink in moderation I used to stay quiet in a room full of people I know But now I'm confident enough to start the conversation Wounds that I thought wouldn't stop bleeding have finally healed My heart has finally mended from the pain it had to feel I got over the girl who hurt me most I learned how to make love to happiness but first I had to flirt with hope I became stronger once I accepted I was in need of help I shared the chapters with the world that would make me cry when I would read them myself I let go of the weapons I would use to beat on myself I've finally found peace with myself