Not Afraid Part 2

I keep trying to fight but everyday it gets worse, I'm trying to carve out a path but it hurts and I loop around to where I stood first. I'm stuck suffering, but won't let no fat lady sing. Relapse, forget the feeling, I'll just get back to my feet and I'll stand, because fate demands, I'll never live it down if I don't rebound. I honestly promise to be at my strongest, in fact no impact or test can crush my chest, ever, I'm a last and never rest not 'til I bask that no flag flew at half mast. I'll dip and I'll rise like a rollercoaster ride but I'll never hollow out inside or lose my pride, I'll battle depressions wickedness with all my witty grittiness and when I'm knocked down I'll breathe, go again and believe, with a greed for freedom core and seed 'til I'm freed. That's the wish beyond painful twists, a thirst to slit wrists through self hatred, and the positive drive is confiscated, but don't be mistaken I'll reinstate it, I aint breaking, this life aint there for the taking, I'll rehabilitate me inevitably.