Nor Ever Will Seem Be
A construct of such fleeting integrity most ways
The life I’ve lived within these recent days
Beyond my measure I’ve been trying my time
Striving the life I long of sublime
I’ve reached too far, beyond my grasp
Out into thin air disregard of my past
Why did I think I could light up tomorrow
When never before could I envision the morrow
Holding myself the esteem I’ve long sought
Believing the life I can see I could wrought
Ever the liar to myself always grandest
And dragging down with me those whom I’m in hand with
Existence continued above that I’m able
Battling above, around and below my life’s table
Convincing inside myself I can win
All the while knowing my blood flows too thin
Why did I reach for and grasp that I can’t hold
Ignoring those days which long ago I unfold
I tell of myself that I can lift to the light
And walk in the path which shows others right
That which not I am nor ever will seem be
What I strive and I long for at last shown not me
My hose of cards falling ever faster now
I’ve not the speed to rebuild the art – how?
I’ve been plugging the leaks of the dike of my life
Moving faster and faster to pretend I can right
Now the water is consuming with a rapidity I can’t match
And the tide beyond rising to smash that which lasts
Copyright © Jim Culhane | Year Posted 2005
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