no one can tell all the pain I hide
I've been depressed lately and that's not really how I do things.
I try to be happy I try to be brave I try to be dependent.
hears what I really am,
I'm depressed/ sad, weak, unreliable.
I try to appear strong but all I am is broken.
I smile through the hard times because I wasn't tough it was okay to cry I thought you had to be strong so I masked everything for so long and its finally came out.
I feel like a baby when I'm almost 18 I don't feel validated and that's fine right?
I'm not okay and I'm learning slowly that's okay.
but I'm not okay and I want it to go away all the pain I hide under my smile I want it all to disappear....
is that's so bad to wish something could no longer be part of you I want my emotions gone then I wouldn't have the problems I have now.
I just feel pain all the time I don't really want to die but it sounds like the best option sometimes, I've asked to be put with a professional experience to help me but I just got pushed to the side.
I've got mommy and daddy problem I'm messed up in the head and just don't understand why anyone would care about me.
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