No matter how hard I try

#No_matter_how_hard_I_try; No matter how hard I try, beyond levels of my abilities where I stretch to reach. No matter how strong I force to be, even when the capacity of my strength have emptied. When bearing no more, being the only way out but the mattering pulse in me, still starring in the hopeless dark for a miracle Obstacles, so huge beyond my tiny body capacity, paramounting impossibilities, beyond my age and height digestion. When my whole body just wanna shutdown, when there's just nothing in my human tactic and ability sack, when there's just nothing to put in place, this world leaking just everywhere, when my only two hands and legs are just not enough anymore, for the load has no bearings and all the errands are just way too important and urgent When I'm all drained and dried up from all possible ways, when everything is just way too heavy, too strong, too beyond. When there's just nothing, no one, nowhere, and impossible. When every strength and bone in me have fractured beyond repair and ressurection. Where there's just never enough, beyond blockages and reaching, beyond the climax, ultimatums n ends but the mattering in me still limping, an unclear and not audible sound signal picking up my soul up, right when all has just bowed and wrapped up to, when commas and sharlom and Amen's are all said and taken but the mattering in me knocks and my kicks out of the coffin, walks out of the fullstops and start putting commas and change red lights into green ones, and beyond becoming nowhere #Poetic_Ink