No Love To Give Him

Sunday was the icing on the cake and things were said that i held on to for so long. out of so much rage and anger. All the times i came to u. i couldn't no longer fight this battle with u. But end this war with myself. Instead the hate in my heart keeps screaming at your soul. So your heart can get the message. In my head many days that things wont get better. So i dont force or think of it being better i just put myself. In the mist of your presents. And just breathe and think about other things. so i dont dwell on a fairytale.. Loving u is Never knowing where i stand until i have no choice but to zone out into a world in which i wanna belong. I have yet to know what love trully feels like. But i wont rush myself. Or god. if I can see the full amount of time. God gives me to learn this lesson. I will plan Accordingly.