nirvAnA in rEvErsE

nirvana in reverse 
My mind is filled with doubt
Guess I chose a different route
Found a cure to the ache
I'm about to break for your sake
Alone

My mind is full with angst
Anxiety and dilemmas, no thanks
Got a feeling I have gone astray
Not today, not today, today 

Ooh, caught in a dangerous d-d-dilemma
Ecstasy is far out at sea
I am stuck in a rut... I am stricken by this enigma
Can't replace this anxiety
Inside me...
Inside me...
Inside me...
Alone
Caught in a dangerous d-d-d-dilemma 
Saw you shine
Wish you mine
Tonight, night
Must fight this fight
With my might
Alone

My mind is thrilled with hope
Suppose I chose a way out
And I cannot stand to cope
Another day out there in despair, so I shout 
Alone

My mind is full with angst
Anxiety and dilemmas, no thanks
Got a feeling I have gone astray
Not today, not today, today 

Ooh, caught in a dangerous d-d-dilemma
Ecstasy is far out at sea
I am stuck in a rut... I am stricken by this enigma
Can't replace this anxiety
Inside me...
Inside me...
Inside me...
Alone
Caught in a dangerous d-d-d-dilemma 
Saw you shine
Wish you mine
Tonight, night
Must fight this fight
With my might
Alone

I can handle your stress and distress
Settle down your saddle upon my back
I lack sunshine in dismal hopelessness
Got to get a grip and get on track, track
Alone

Tonight, night
Must fight this fight
With my might
I will make this plight
By taking flight
Alone
My mind is full with angst
Anxiety and dilemmas, no thanks
Got a feeling I have gone astray
Not today, not today, today 

Ooh, caught in a dangerous d-d-dilemma
Ecstasy is far out at sea
I am stuck in a rut... I am stricken by this enigma

Without you, I'm lost and never found
I'm bound to be in chains, chaotic with sound
Without you
I am without a clue
Alone

Can't replace this anxiety
Inside me...
Inside me...
Inside me...
Caught in a dangerous d-d-d-dilemma
A lot has to do with my inner engima
I'm a flawful, awful man to lose you
I'm an uncanny, ugly man to hurt you too
All I say is true, true that I feel blue, blue with rue
Alone

My mind is full with angst
Anxiety and dilemmas, no thanks
Got a feeling I have gone astray
Not today, not today, today 

Ooh, caught in a dangerous d-d-dilemma
I gnaw at my captivity chains in stricken awe
Wish you mine
My sunlit divine
Can't replace this anxiety
Inside me...
Inside me...
Inside me...
Alone
But you can free me forevermore
With wings to soar and a love to adore
You're the shining shore to my ship
Again, I'd like to say thanks for your forever friendship 

My mind is filled with doubt
Guess I chose a different route
Got a feeling I have gone astray
Not today, not today, today
Felt this dilemma inside
Your fearless, tearful tide
I cried and cried and cried
Till I lie awake with pride
Alone
Knowing that tomorrow
Will bring no more sorrow
Something in me has died
Someone deep inside...
Now, I want to hide...
Your hello has been goodbyed
Alone

For your sake,
I had to leave
I am about to break
You, alone, grieve
Faithless and doubtfulness
Are two peas in a pod, downtrod 
Distress and anguishness
Turns to joy, thank You, oh God
Alone

You gave us nirvana in reverse
This life is a gift or a CURSE
My mind was filled with doubt
Until I chose His narrow route
Alone

Abide by my side
Subside, doubts inside
Free me, but inside me,
I am a lost soul of envy
Alone

Forbidden fear drowns me so
Wish you knew I love you though
Reaping what I sow, what I sow
Endure, then let your light show
I'm free without pain in my heart
Doubt tries to tear me apart
Please don't leave me in the deathcart
You're my abstract art from the start
A masterpiece in the making
A masterpiece not worth breaking
The ache inside subsides now
I love you but you don't somehow
All alone...
It's shown
In your nirvana eyes
Of unstoppable lies

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