Never There

How far would I go, Just to find peace for my soul? I wander here and there, I feel as though I have been every where. Too restless to stay, too sad to go. Could some one please show me what I am looking for? I find things to love in every place I live. But none of them compare to the feeling of home. I used to feel that way when I waded in the rivers back west. I felt that way in the heat so very far south. But the feeling never stays long, And before you know it I am gone again. I once felt safe, and happy. In a house some would say was shabby. But it was the man inside the walls that made it feel warm and inviting. His eyes where blue like the ocean, I still feel my heart is broken. Because I left even him, This cycle I cannot break. If only I could just stay in one place. And now my nightmares remind me of whose face I ache for. Please, God, tell me what I am searching for? Why do I keep losing the ones I love? Why can I not be content with what I have? Instead I wander, Never knowing why or where. But no matter what I do, or where I go, You are never there.