Never Surrender To Death
You think I’m happy
You see the laughter on my face
But you forgot to look into my heart
And see the sorrow
See the betrayal
I’ve been through, the sadness I have to live
The sun I do not have
The love I lack
The porch I need
I am a one face position
I can’t pretend
I can’t pretend happiness
But I try to conceal misery with a mask
Called me
Can you imagine walking, giving, loving
But having hatred in return
Can you imagine swearing never to speak to daughter of your mother?
Saying its worth it and that her disrespect caused me to do it?
When I find no respect nor love nor understanding
Do you expect me to stay walking on the same trail?
The trail that got me no good
When you put your trust in someone….
And that person lets you down
Gives you an odor of loneliness
Gives you a punch of hell
When you never met the one you love?
Never have a chance to have a chat with your feelings
When miles, countries, people separate between you and me
Can I ever have a chance to tell u come back!
The doors are closing
The air is decreasing
The dark light is only there
The only guide
To guide you to the doors of hell
The path of never coming back
The stairs of a scary place…,
Where monsters are your only mates
And blood is your only drink
Where people get tortured and punished
For they’re unpardonable sins
I walk with eyes of red burning with disknowledge
With heart bleeding with questions?
Do I deserve this?
A flashback of events gazed at me
Showing me kinds of friends who gave me hope
Hope to be what I desire
Regardless of all others
Telling me what family means
Hitting my head with facts
Facts of happiness
Facts of standing
Standing to face torment
Giving it a medicine of it’s self
As my red razor-sharp blade came from no where
As I fought disgrace, pain and agony!!
I started to feel delight, started to feel alive
Suddenly woke up from the worst but not least real dream
A dream who gave me something, missing for too long
Never give yourself to death while u still can!
Copyright © Louzana Nubani | Year Posted 2010
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