Never Good Enough

Never good enough for anyone it seems The only time I am is at night in my dreams And people tell me what I think isn't real but no one has realized that what I think is what I feel so when I think about death or about if I die Or maybe getting drunk or just a little high Maybe I want to get rid of the numbness and feel some pain Because right now, I can't even feel the rain That lands on my face in the middle of the storm And it's freezing outside but I still feel warm So I begin to think that I can fake it Fake my happiness and then stage my fall And then there will be no pain once I hit the ground Because my heart will stop beating and I will have ended it all