Never Again

I mean it mommy I am sorry for what I did I'll never tell the truth again for even if they beg me and say the truth will set me free I know of the hurt it causes so I'll just let it be, I will slowly die away and kill myself inside no worries mother it wasn't your crime I know its not my fault either but why am I being punished sorry I let the family secret slip I opened my mouth oh to hell with me how did I forget Well thats ******** I am not sorry and I could careless but him, my own father HE did THIS how could you stand up for him for so many years do you know how many times I woke up in the middle of the night breaking down in tears? Well mother his secrets out and it's a little to big to be forgotten about but I guess to you I wasn't big enough I wasn't even good enough to be a diamond in the rough I was just dumped on the side line watching every play like a water boy I wasted my life away wanted to feel needed but knowing I am not strong enough smart enough and to you I am not dead enough to Hell with trust